I am terrible at saving money. TERRIBLE. I've been meaning to make a rewards/punishment system for myself because I know from experience that it would help. And I have no good reason for why I haven't done it yet. I'm so tired of the stress that money brings. It consumes way to much of my thinking. I lived pretty darn frugally during college and now I guess I'm just splurging b/c I can. Except... I shouldn't. And it needs to stop. Maybe I'll post my personal contract/rewards system ... those kind of things are much more effective when they are shared with a neighbor.
That is my number one pet peeve about myself. Number two is the fact that I am terrible at maintaining/building relationships. This has to do with people that I am already friends with and people that I am building a relationship with. My mind does funny things. Sometimes I think that the other person is going to judge me... on my looks, on my thoughts, on my opinions... on my anything. And the thought of being judged just gives me the heebie jeebies. Actually, it would be ignorant and stupid to think that people don't judge me... but I think it is stupid of me to let it immobilize me. Yet, it does. I analyze everything too much... and will be the first to admit that being so analytical can be damaging. This fear keeps me from initiating conversations with people... and since I've realized that, I've been able to tackle it one conversation at a time.
Sometimes I try to just float through life/relationships... avoiding controversy/pain/anything that might spark emotion. Maybe I'm afraid to grow? I don't know. Don't get attached... because who knows what's going to happen right?
I don't know where this came from... but uh... sometimes it helps to just GO. and type.
I love this song by Brandon Heath...
Give me your eyes for just one second, Give me your eyes so I can see, Everything that I keep missing, Give me your love for humanity. Give me Your arms for the broken-hearted The ones that are far beyond my reach. Give me Your heart for the ones forgotten. Give me Your eyes so I can see.
Here's something to do:
This is probably the biggest collection of creative places, things, architecture etc. that I have ever seen.
A very traditional idea... made new.
This has nothing to do with drugs.
If only money grew on trees.... I would splurge here.
Soon I will be making one of these.
... I need to peruse some antique shops for a frame.
That's all for now :)
Chris is coming out here on Wednesday... and I've been boggling my mind on what fun stuff we could do. The Omaha zoo looks so amazing... and so cheap! They have the largest Rainforest exhibit and desert exhibit in the world. Not sure if we'll get there though...
Anywhooo... here is the product of my boredom:
Where do you live?
What is your favorite color?
ohh, i have lots of favs. earthy tones are the best, especially greens and yellows.
What is your favorite city?
San Francisco... there's just something about that place. lots of memories I suppose :
What is your favorite thing to cook?
pancakes and french toast...easy and soooo guuuuud.
What beauty product can you not live without?
ooohh, estea lauder anything. their eyeshadow is amazing.
What is your favorite nyc restaurant?
oh sure, uh... never been there.
What is one thing you can’t help but splurge on?
good shampoo and conditioner... especially KMS California ... miracle working stuff i tell ya.
What is your favorite word?
punky doodle. or snickerdoodle. or cacahuete.
What movie can you recite by heart?
you know, even if i watch a movie and love it i probably won't watch it again for several months. sooo... i'm not a reciter.
What is your favorite thing to do on the weekend?
oh just farting around.
Which tv show makes you happiest?
The Office. No matter what my day was like, NBC thursday night at 8 p.m. ... I will be smiling.
What is your favorite beverage?
coffee. ugh. currently drinking it.
What is one trend that totally victimized you?
i would definitely avoid calling myself trendy... i might take some ideas from whats currently trendy and warp it to my own liking. maybe it's a good thing....maybe it's not.
If you could trade lives with anyone for a day who would you chose?
I would trade with Obama...and quit. sorry.
What is your favorite comfort food?
What famous person do you think you most resemble?
really, no one. i've been told i look like the girl from sabrina the teenage witch.... ??
What was the best piece of advice you were ever given? Who gave it to you?
Just about every night of my life (when i have to drive somewhere) my dad tells me to watch out for deer. That's some darn good advice...they are EVERYWHERE. I hate em.
What three possessions do you value most?
My job, my car, my socks.
What three non-material things do you value most?
How about the obvious... the people i love, my Savior, and life in America.
When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Who was it?
Oh, earlier I told Chris that I love him :)
I'm doing everything I can to not have a nervous break down. I'm trying to think of everything BUT the fact that I have an interview with BSU in less than two hours... on the phone. If this would have been the case a year ago...I would have been pacing and crying. I used to HATE talking on the phone with people I have never met... especially when it was regarding something even remotely important. I might even say it was a phobia. K, maybe not... but it just seems more blog worthy that way.
I used to write out what I was going to say... and rehearse it in my head (several times). I used to put off the phone call until the VERY. LAST. MINUTE. Then I would have a new sense of panic because of the time crunch. Sometimes I would just sit there with my phone in my hand...number dialed... waiting to hit send... My heart rate would SOAR... then I would get shaky... and meanwhile my friends are like... "JUST DO IT!!" ... I'm getting shaky just reminiscing.
I know for sure that I have missed out on a lot of good opportunities because of that fear. BUT, I have come a long way... and have had many phone calls with people I have never met... phone calls regarding important matters... and I have survived! Wow...this sounds lame. But I'm proud because it is something that I have overcome.
All that to say... I think I will be fine during this interview... it's just the anticipation that's killing me. I'm going to just talk with them... and hopefully they can see that I am genuine and passionate. I am terrible at expressing my thoughts, so I'm trusting that God will guide my words.
It's Nicole's birthday today :) She told me that since the interview is on her birthday... nothing can go wrong :) I like that idea!
Happy Birthday Nicole!!
... This is just funny. It's something that I'm sure we've all been a witness to...
... I discovered this site through a friend that got her engagement photos done by this photographer... and HOLY COW! She's only been taking pictures for a year... and explains that she sort of stumbled upon this new found hobby/business... and she's awesome! Check it out.
... Just plain funny.
... For those days when you just need a reminder of how 'normal' you are.
...I stumbled across this blog, and thankfully stumbled across her blogroll/links page... fun for YEARS. I love browsing through people's showcase type blogs where they display all their projects...AND explain how they did it. It's inspiring and sickening all at the same time ;)
...Needless to say... I'm addicted to networks like this one.
Consider this Part I. :)
I'm scheduled for an interview with the Counselor Edu. department at Boise State on Thursday the 12th at 9:50!!
And....I just got a really cheap windshield estimate... life is GOOD!
... thank goodness for small businesses :)
.... Shnitzle can come out of that dark garage soon!
And... oh my goodness it's supposed to be 60 degrees today!!! All the snow is gone :) It was foggy this morning... and it felt like a CA winter.
And... I don't have to go to work until 1 wooo!
And this one...I'm awfully wrinkly in this picture and makeupless... but Chris looks cute, and the background and lighting are sweet.
That is all.