I would just like to state that I am totally insecure about my body right now.... the thought of getting into a bathing suit in a month or so makes me want to ________. Just fill in the blank. I can't even explain. I've been thinking....maybe I'll get a tankini and wear shorts with that and call that a bathing suit? What kind of tan line would that produce?? ;) I've never been this distraught about bathing suit season.
As of this morning.... I've decided that I am wasting time and emotional energy on stressing about this 'problem'. I am going to do something about it. In fact...I already have. I picked up a Self magazine the other day and decided to commit to doing the workout they suggest. And... I felt like such a weakling fatty that I am slightly inspired to do it again tomorrow morning.
However, I think half my problem is what I eat. I eat junk 75% of the time. Cupcakes... and yadadadada. I could go on for a while. It shouldn't be this hard b/c I love healthy food too... a lot. I guess I just don't crave it like I crave sweets.
Therefore....I will be writing down everything I eat from breakfast to those late night snacks.... so that I can really see what I eat in one day (maybe I'll even total up caloric intake).
There are two reasons that I am posting this: (1) so that YOU can keep me acountable (2) Now it's on 'paper' and I have to follow through with what I said.
We'll see how this goes. And don't worry.... I do know that Jesus loves me no matter what physical state I'm in. lol.