wutaweekend

This weekend has been slightly busy, and in a good way. Lindsey had prom yesterday... so I helped 'turn the beast into a beauty' ;) I did her hair and makeup... not hard to do since she's a showstoppahh! Here's the frumpy/beasty before picture ;)

And after:

BAM!

Here's some more pics...

So anywho, it was fun getting her all dressed up :)

Lately I've been applying to every job that I come accross online. Last night I spend 1.5 hours on an application for a receptionist position at a Lithia car dealership. Maybe I just wasted an hour and a half of my life... but I'm in no position where I can be picky. I'm really hoping that I'll at least get a call/ email from someone. I don't necessarily see myself thriving as a receptionist... but it's generally a decent paying job with benefits. I've been applying for nanny and childcare positions as well. I would prefer a job in one of those areas... but usually those sort of jobs don't provide the best pay/benefits. Thank goodness all of this is NOT up to me. God knows where I'll be working and I just need to realize that he'll take care of it.

Before I started working at the daycare where I currently work, I was so stressed and mad because the right kind of jobs in the right locations weren't readily available... and that's because I was supposed to work at this daycare. I just need to remember that God took care of my needs then, and will continue to do so. Even if it doesn't fit MY description of what's right for me or my idea of the right time.

Meanwhile... I get pretty darn bummed thinking that I have to leave those little munchkins soon. They are such a big part of my life! I'm with most of them close to 40 hours a week and it's going to be a tearful day when I have to leave 'em.

*Sigh*

Agenda for this week:

*call advisor & register for classes

*create a 'things to get' list

*check U-haul rates

*keep hunting for a good Dell laptop

*breathe

*keep job hunting

*keep apartment hunting

*keep on keepin on

ohh chicken nuggets

So... I don't think I've mentioned that I got into Boise State :) ... therefore... there are two things on my mind. I need a job and a place to live....

these sort of times really stress me out.

Most of my spare time now goes to searching for jobs/apartments online. yikeroonies. i just hope that God has a beautifully stressfree plan for me. *sigh*

Aaaaand

those green double underlined links on my blog are not from me. I'm slightly confused about where they came from? oh well.

home improvement confessional

In an effort to improve myself... here's a confessional.

I am terrible at saving money. TERRIBLE. I've been meaning to make a rewards/punishment system for myself because I know from experience that it would help. And I have no good reason for why I haven't done it yet. I'm so tired of the stress that money brings. It consumes way to much of my thinking. I lived pretty darn frugally during college and now I guess I'm just splurging b/c I can. Except... I shouldn't. And it needs to stop. Maybe I'll post my personal contract/rewards system ... those kind of things are much more effective when they are shared with a neighbor.

That is my number one pet peeve about myself. Number two is the fact that I am terrible at maintaining/building relationships. This has to do with people that I am already friends with and people that I am building a relationship with. My mind does funny things. Sometimes I think that the other person is going to judge me... on my looks, on my thoughts, on my opinions... on my anything. And the thought of being judged just gives me the heebie jeebies. Actually, it would be ignorant and stupid to think that people don't judge me... but I think it is stupid of me to let it immobilize me. Yet, it does. I analyze everything too much... and will be the first to admit that being so analytical can be damaging. This fear keeps me from initiating conversations with people... and since I've realized that, I've been able to tackle it one conversation at a time.

Sometimes I try to just float through life/relationships... avoiding controversy/pain/anything that might spark emotion. Maybe I'm afraid to grow? I don't know. Don't get attached... because who knows what's going to happen right?

I don't know where this came from... but uh... sometimes it helps to just GO. and type.

*sigh*

I love this song by Brandon Heath...

Give me your eyes for just one second, Give me your eyes so I can see, Everything that I keep missing, Give me your love for humanity. Give me Your arms for the broken-hearted The ones that are far beyond my reach. Give me Your heart for the ones forgotten. Give me Your eyes so I can see.

My patience is being tested, that is for sure. I still have not recieved anything from Boise yet. I'm trying to not let my nervousness and frustration build... but jeez that's pretty hard to do.

Here's something to do:

This is probably the biggest collection of creative places, things, architecture etc. that I have ever seen.

A very traditional idea... made new.

This has nothing to do with drugs.

If only money grew on trees.... I would splurge here.

And here.

Soon I will be making one of these.

... I need to peruse some antique shops for a frame.

That's all for now :)

I guess you could say I'm pretty darn peeved that I haven't heard from Boise yet... If I don't get a letter/call from them by tomorrow.... I will be officially pissed. I have been waiting and waiting... with no idea what the letter will say. PINS AND NEEDLES are NOT comfy. Not comfy I tell ya.

Chris is coming out here on Wednesday... and I've been boggling my mind on what fun stuff we could do. The Omaha zoo looks so amazing... and so cheap! They have the largest Rainforest exhibit and desert exhibit in the world. Not sure if we'll get there though...

Anywhooo... here is the product of my boredom:


Where do you live?
cornville hawarden

What is your favorite color?
ohh, i have lots of favs. earthy tones are the best, especially greens and yellows.

What is your favorite city?
San Francisco... there's just something about that place. lots of memories I suppose :

What is your favorite thing to cook?
pancakes and french toast...easy and soooo guuuuud.

What beauty product can you not live without?
ooohh, estea lauder anything. their eyeshadow is amazing.

What is your favorite nyc restaurant?
oh sure, uh... never been there.

What is one thing you can’t help but splurge on?
good shampoo and conditioner... especially KMS California ... miracle working stuff i tell ya.

What is your favorite word?
punky doodle. or snickerdoodle. or cacahuete.

What movie can you recite by heart?
you know, even if i watch a movie and love it i probably won't watch it again for several months. sooo... i'm not a reciter.

What is your favorite thing to do on the weekend?
oh just farting around.

Which tv show makes you happiest?
The Office. No matter what my day was like, NBC thursday night at 8 p.m. ... I will be smiling.

What is your favorite beverage?
coffee. ugh. currently drinking it.

What is one trend that totally victimized you?
i would definitely avoid calling myself trendy... i might take some ideas from whats currently trendy and warp it to my own liking. maybe it's a good thing....maybe it's not.

If you could trade lives with anyone for a day who would you chose?
I would trade with Obama...and quit. sorry.

What is your favorite comfort food?
candy.

What famous person do you think you most resemble?
really, no one. i've been told i look like the girl from sabrina the teenage witch.... ??

What was the best piece of advice you were ever given? Who gave it to you?
Just about every night of my life (when i have to drive somewhere) my dad tells me to watch out for deer. That's some darn good advice...they are EVERYWHERE. I hate em.

What three possessions do you value most?
My job, my car, my socks.

What three non-material things do you value most?
How about the obvious... the people i love, my Savior, and life in America.

When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Who was it?
Oh, earlier I told Chris that I love him :)

Just around the river bend!!

Shoot, now I have that Pocahontas song stuck in my head. And so do you!

Ok, sorry.

I'm doing everything I can to not have a nervous break down. I'm trying to think of everything BUT the fact that I have an interview with BSU in less than two hours... on the phone. If this would have been the case a year ago...I would have been pacing and crying. I used to HATE talking on the phone with people I have never met... especially when it was regarding something even remotely important. I might even say it was a phobia. K, maybe not... but it just seems more blog worthy that way.

I used to write out what I was going to say... and rehearse it in my head (several times). I used to put off the phone call until the VERY. LAST. MINUTE. Then I would have a new sense of panic because of the time crunch. Sometimes I would just sit there with my phone in my hand...number dialed... waiting to hit send... My heart rate would SOAR... then I would get shaky... and meanwhile my friends are like... "JUST DO IT!!" ... I'm getting shaky just reminiscing.

I know for sure that I have missed out on a lot of good opportunities because of that fear. BUT, I have come a long way... and have had many phone calls with people I have never met... phone calls regarding important matters... and I have survived! Wow...this sounds lame. But I'm proud because it is something that I have overcome.

All that to say... I think I will be fine during this interview... it's just the anticipation that's killing me. I'm going to just talk with them... and hopefully they can see that I am genuine and passionate. I am terrible at expressing my thoughts, so I'm trusting that God will guide my words.

Holy Moly.

It's Nicole's birthday today :) She told me that since the interview is on her birthday... nothing can go wrong :) I like that idea!

Happy Birthday Nicole!!